Stuck

I want,  I achieve.
I desire, I receive.
It's that simple, yet it never has been with you.
I love myself, more than you'd think
But when it's bad, the worse I sink..

When I love, I love with all I have
If I hand over my heart it's yours to grab.
But I have my wishes, my desires,
If those I do not get, you only put out the fire.

You had a choice, you had my time,
But yet again you made a crime...
It's not so bad but quite a shame
but in the end, I am to blame.

So tell me now, 'cause this is dire...
What is obsession and what is desire?
For a simple answer is what I require.

I'm done - right now - it's been enough
you had no ace, you chose to bluff.