White Christmas

It's been snowing here for a few days already. I know all I've wanted this year was snow for Christmas and sadly, someone I can't have. I was surprised to find that one of my wishes did come true. Today, after I had finished class, I took an extremely long walk home and just let the snowflakes fall on my head and face and it felt so good. Whenever it snows I feel this warmth, this feeling of belonging somewhere. Odd..isn't it?

I'm going home in two days and to be honest I can't wait! I'll see my parents, grandmother, Cristi, ex-class mates, friends, neighbors.. I miss them so much, everything about them. I even miss the grumpy neighbor that lives next door to the apartment in Brasov, despite the fact that I only get to see him twice a year. I'll get in time for Big Bro's birthday and also for New Year with my dear ex-classmates and friends. Sometimes I wonder why I left that place. I had all I needed there. Guess there was the need for change? Heck.. it's just that you realize what you had only after you lose them.

Think I'll try to fix a few friendships when I get there. Sort things out with Oana, Vlad, maybe even Robert, definitely Alina too. But what I fear the most is actually the need of sorting things out with my father. I can already see myself in 2010 still not having talked anything with him. Being two stubborn people never helps. It's like a deadline. If I don't do anything in two weeks, I'll already know how the next year will look regarding relationships with certain people and man I hate that happening.

Almost forgot to mention this, with my latest obsession for "Scrubs", I've also learned something. "Nothing in this world that's worth having comes easy." And I think nobody could have expressed that better, even though that quote actually came from Mr. Evil Old Hag Bob Kelso. I guess in life all you really need to ask for is the strength required to hang on there and keep on fighting for your goals.

So since I've done enough wanna-be-chit-chatty monologue around here, I shall jump into my humble bed and dream of butterflies and hurricanes.

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow.