Goodbye 2009!

How the last day of the year was for me? Well so far it has been pretty dull.
After 5 years I'll be spending New Year with mom and granny. Listening to Armin van Buuren now. It's hilarious how things changed. Thinking back on 2009 I'd rather cry then smile somehow. I've learned many things about me that I wasn't aware of before. I've ruined friendships, gained others instead. I had those "big" exams in June, I moved from Brasov, "I crossed the border into the big bad world", I've learned how to cook, I'm with the person I've always dreamed of being but still somewhere put aside there's a small amount of regret, not sure where that comes from.
I've slowly let go of my hometown, somehow I feel a stranger when I walk on Republicii at night. Sometimes I pass people by that I thought I knew but they walk away without even looking back. ( must be the glasses, yes, eww!) Sometimes I think.. everything could be different.

Everything in life is limited to decisions. Good ones make you happy, bad ones haunt you for awhile.
But in the end, after a long year of ups and downs, political issues ( we all know about those..), money problems( seriously now, why did I have to remind us all?), changes etc, I guess the most important thing is to look back and see the good parts only, see that you have your family supporting you, that changes aren't always bad, that the one you love is there for you and will be for a long time, that your hamster, despite his missing leg, still gets all crazy whenever you step in your room, that your taste in music still rocks, that you can still draw well, that your soup doesn't taste of socks anymore and that those two weird people sleeping under a balcony actually smiled when they got some cake. :)
So allow me to finish this post with optimism. (cut me some slack, it's not my mooost obvious trait)
Summing up some of the good songs.

"We are golden"


Owl City!


And last but not least, Viva la vida baby!



Happy New Year everyone, enjoy life, enjoy music and love. Yes, love!

Goodbye 2009!

White Christmas

It's been snowing here for a few days already. I know all I've wanted this year was snow for Christmas and sadly, someone I can't have. I was surprised to find that one of my wishes did come true. Today, after I had finished class, I took an extremely long walk home and just let the snowflakes fall on my head and face and it felt so good. Whenever it snows I feel this warmth, this feeling of belonging somewhere. Odd..isn't it?

I'm going home in two days and to be honest I can't wait! I'll see my parents, grandmother, Cristi, ex-class mates, friends, neighbors.. I miss them so much, everything about them. I even miss the grumpy neighbor that lives next door to the apartment in Brasov, despite the fact that I only get to see him twice a year. I'll get in time for Big Bro's birthday and also for New Year with my dear ex-classmates and friends. Sometimes I wonder why I left that place. I had all I needed there. Guess there was the need for change? Heck.. it's just that you realize what you had only after you lose them.

Think I'll try to fix a few friendships when I get there. Sort things out with Oana, Vlad, maybe even Robert, definitely Alina too. But what I fear the most is actually the need of sorting things out with my father. I can already see myself in 2010 still not having talked anything with him. Being two stubborn people never helps. It's like a deadline. If I don't do anything in two weeks, I'll already know how the next year will look regarding relationships with certain people and man I hate that happening.

Almost forgot to mention this, with my latest obsession for "Scrubs", I've also learned something. "Nothing in this world that's worth having comes easy." And I think nobody could have expressed that better, even though that quote actually came from Mr. Evil Old Hag Bob Kelso. I guess in life all you really need to ask for is the strength required to hang on there and keep on fighting for your goals.

So since I've done enough wanna-be-chit-chatty monologue around here, I shall jump into my humble bed and dream of butterflies and hurricanes.

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow.

Free Hugs

So as I was browsing youtube for interesting videos I kinda got to this one. I was surprised about the nice idea and I was pretty moved to be honest. Although I couldn't ignore the many people that were passing by without caring. Either way, it's a shred of hope I guess.. sometimes people are not as ignorant as they seem :)
Here it is :

A new start.

It's been a year now since I first started writing different thoughts I had on my phone. So I thought hey, why not type them here? I might not be the most talented writer, and I might not even have an entertaining life to share. But there's something I'll do, and that's talk about people. About things I see in them, things I don't. Things I feel for them or don't. But then again, why do I even bother. It's not as if I can ever change the world by the things I write or by analyzing humans.

I used to be totally against blogs, just because I've seen so many people write things pointlessly just for the sake of having a "blog". So eventually I managed to fall into this trap and here I find myself doing the exact same thing I used to despise awhile ago.


Why "A new start" ? Let's say things have been different for me lately. I've seen so many changes that I actually don't even know if I'm the same anymore. But that doesn't have to be a bad thing. I've been happier then I have ever been so far in my life, yet I've never felt this lonely before. I guess it all comes with parting from your friends and your family, starting a new life (or at least trying) etc.

So basically what I'm trying to say here is that I'm bored :)
It's Friday, almost 6pm and I'm cooking..