It hit me today... and it hit me hard. I shouldn't have listened to all those old songs and dig up the past. I know how it can hit me... ugh. I need a little escape right now, I'll run tomorrow morning as soon as I drive the little one to school.
It's been a long run and maybe it is good that someone reminded me of back then, of something I don't really talk about and if I do it is with the close ones and as little as humanly possible.
In moments like these I get a few answers, I realize why I do what I do, why I did what I did, why I acted how I did when I did. Excuses and excuses. Weakness. It's all gone now and it is a lot better.
I'll break through it one day though, I left it behind a while ago but I guess some things need to be cleared before you can truly let go. Ambiguous? Yes, I deal with that on a daily basis.
No one ever knows what we are searching for.
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