How is it that each and every time I hold a mans hand something happens afterwards. It's like a curse trying to keep me from being happy, from having someone next to me. All I ever wished for was to have some sweet relationship with someone, to give the best I could and to simply share a feeling with someone... I have so much love in me and nobody to share it with. It's slightly disturbing to get a kick in the ass every time you get only a tiny bit close to someone.
Eh.. maybe I'm doing something wrong.. or maybe I'm not .. supposed to have anyone yet? Maybe I need to learn to live with myself.. but the thing is I've always been by myself and it's fine up to a certain point.. there are moments when you simply wish for someone to be next to you and hold you. I must be doing something wrong. Guess I should simply stop looking for things that aren't there.
Good night dear reader,
hope you're not feeling as lonely as I do right now. :)
